Tuesday, January 10, 2006

UE, my little secret until now...

Ever been really into something that you havent openly shared with others? Some obscure hobby type thing you kept to yourself for fear of what others thought? Well Im happy to say, that I was surfing a while back and found not only there is a bunch of others that do what I do, but theres even a name for it...
Urban Exploration
Ever since I can remember Ive been going places Im not supposed to go, or others just wouldnt think to. Abandonned houses, parts of hotels marked "employees only", gated off roads that said "no tresspassing" etc. Yeah I know, sounds like trespassing at a glance, but really its not. Some of these old abandoned buildings are just forgotten about for years until they are usually (unfortunately) torn down. With no urban explorers taking pictures, the grandness of these places would be forgotten. Not to mention the the pieces of personal history others leave behind. Theres just something really beautiful about abandoned places....not something I can really put into words, so I will leave you with a few links so you can see for yourself......

There is a film coming out on the topic of Urban Explorers. You can watch the trailer here
Check out the Danvers Photography here, this place will soon be gone, along with the memories and patient art in it.
There are many more sites if you want to search google or look around a bit more, or you can just ask me!!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Dental Issues

For those of you who dont know, I have been suffering from dental issues for quite some time. I had 4 very rough (morningsickness and otherwise) pregnancies. I am truly looking forward to the tax check comming soon to get all of my top teeth ripped out and get me some nice PURTY new ones. Haha, sorry but people with bad teeth are so associated with rednecks, and I live in Indiana, so I just HAD to go there.
The reason I bring this up is because I was watching some late night thing on tv when I couldnt sleep. Not sure if it was E true hollywood story, but if not, something similar. It was a show on Patrick Swayze and I really wasnt paying much attention until they said something about him almost losing his leg. That piqued my attention and then they said it was due to sepsis. Sepsis is a severe illness caused by overwheming infection of the bloodstream by toxin-producing bacteria. Now I knew that meningitis and other serious things could cause this. I did NOT know, that an infected tooth could cause it. You can go into septic shock with a 60% death rate from an infected stinking TOOTH! Since then I have been looking up these things on the internet and finding an alarming number of cases. So yeah, considering I have had this problem for almost 10 years, Im a little freaked out here.
More that that, Im pissed. I have never had a dentist tell me that this could occour or happen. The closest thing they have told me was that if I had a heart murmur, they want you to be on antibiotics a few days before removing a tooth. Thats it. Not anything about dying of septic shock. Not anything about infections moving to a joint and possibly losing a limb. Nothing about it affecting my kidney, liver, bowels, lungs, etc. I dont know if any of you have ever been in a bad money situation with no insurance, but no dentist will see you. They dont want to hear about anything involving payments unless it includes a platinum or a goldcard and a perfect credit history. There have been many times I have just layed around for a week or two with a tooth that was just screaming because of lack of funds to go to the dentist. *Gross Factor Warning*This last time, probably about 7 or 8 months ago now, I took a piercing needle to the abscess as the needles are hollow and just let the pus drain to escape some of the pain.** Usually its about 2 weeks of faithfully applying clove oil and hoping it works its way in good enough to kill the root, then usually the tooth cracks off at the gumline later but at least the majority of nerves are dead.
I am pleased to find that medicaid is now accepted at some dentists. Nothing fancy can get done, but at least if you have a throbbing tooth, you can get it pulled out. So, if medicaid finally aquiesced into admitting this was a medical problem, why wont insurance companies?? I still have my ex's dental insurance. Same old crap, they dont cover most things, even after 5 years with the same insurance. Their limit has been the same the whole time, even though its a family plan. I have had 2 kids since we got this insurance, and the max amount they will pay per year remains the same, $1000. Since my last extraction was about $260, you can see how far that goes. But this whole sepsis thing changes things up a bit doesnt it? Shouldnt something that can infect many other parts of your body and kill you be considered a medical issue???
This country sure SUX at taking care of its citizens that it sends to their deaths in other countries, dont it? So today when I scoff at the american flag, or dont stand for the national anthem, no Im not putting down your sons/daughters/nephew/aunt that is off dying somewhere for Bush's profit. Im acting that way because the people that flag represents could care less about us regular non rich types that can die from things like sepsis.
**Oh, I was thinking of posting a pic of my grossness, but #1 I didnt think youd necesarily want to see it, #2 Im not sure that I have enough balls to do it(its really ugly), and #3 Im really lazy and dont want to install my webcam drivers** I dunno, if yall wanna see it its up to you..........